For My Honey Pie and Sugar Cube in my Chaii

Paralytic Days 

Since the day you became cold
Wet and drenched clothes and sneakers
I walk alone down the 5th Avenue streets
As the long night gets darker,
the rain pours down on my lost self
Evidently, I am under the dead streetlamp in front of your house
It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
In this place and time without you,
In a hopeless world I fight with loneliness
Unconsciously, lingering around you,
I feel like a beggar

A person like you is such a confusing set of questions and answers
you left me because you didn't believe in my dream
Mercilessly, you push me off into despair
in a corner excluded from the world
I find myself in this place where I see everything to be dark,
When we meet, I can't express my greetings
or a single word to you,
Outside your window, the forgotten rain and wind blows
Indicating our love has broken into many pieces
After today, I will try to bury our love inside a package of farewell

Since those old days
We were trapped in a box called reason,
rather than a box called emotion
Tonight, I’m trapped in memories of you
I don't know why
all of our hell-like memories are still in my head
I drown myself in your thought that is like a nightmare
I keep remembering,
my heart is secretly trembling
These past few days,
the word, love has only gave me scars 

Were the memories with me so easy for you?
Sometimes I wonder why did you throw me away like garbage?
I knew that there’s no such promise that lasts forever
But now seeing your confidence makes me feel so bad for you
Because after tonight I won't have an ounce of feeling left for you
Thanks to you, I won't get hurt again
Tomorrow I will continue on with these memories that are forever stained

I had realized everything that was pointed towards me wasn't love
You put on that fake smile of yours
You kept playing a suffocating game of hide-and-seek with me
But now my sharp thorns will hurt you
Because I have decided you and I must come to an end
You taught me
emotions are just another extravagant shizz
And this so called love is Obsession’s best friend
And for tomorrow on
I will have no lingering attachments to you,
There will be none

This is a word collage made up of songs. Initially, I wanted to write a song for a friend and apologize but I listen to sad songs so this turned into to a poem about a heartbreak. I hope my 'Pheeling' will reach my friend and our relationship will change for better in the future.

Credit:
Bang Yongguk and Song Jieun's Going Crazy
Bang Yongguk and Yang Yosoeb's I remember 
B.A.P's Voicemail, Secret Love, Rain Sound, Coma
Epik High's Kill This Love
Infinite's Paradise and BTD
Kim Sunggyu's 41 Days
Lee Hi's Rose
Secret's Starlight Moonlight

Selena Gomez's A Year Without Rain
Tablo's Bad
U-Kiss's Man Man Han Ni